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One Cup of Star Fruit: 32 calories
One Cup of Apricot: 34 calories
One Cup of Watermelon: 34 calories
One Cup of Strawberries: 50 calories
One Cup of Apple Slices: 50 calories
Half Cup of Papaya: 27 calories
Half Cup of Cantaloupe: 27 calories
Half Cup of Plums: 27 calories
Half Cup of Honeydew Melon: 30 calories
Half Cup of Blackberries: 31 calories
Half Cup of Raspberries: 32 calories
Half Cup of Peach: 33 calories
Half Cup of Pineapple: 37 calories
Half of Grapefruit: 39 calories
Half Cup of Blueberries: 42 calories
12 Cherries: 43 calories
Large Tangerine: 48 calories
One Pear: 49 calories
4 Ounces of Unsweetened Flavored Applesauce: 50 calories
Miniature Box of Raisins: 45 calories
Half a Frozen Banana: 45 calories
½ cup Jicama with Salsa or Yoghurt Dip 1 ½ cups Sugar Snap Peas: 40 calories
Celery Stalk with ½ Tablespoon of Peanut Butter: 47 calories
¼ Cup of Edamame with Sea Salt: 47 calories
1 ½ cups Salted Pop Corn: 48 calories
8 ounces of Miso Soup: 36 calories
One serving of Lightly Salted Soy Crisps: 50 calories
Large European Cucumber with Vinegar: 45 calories
5 Kosher Dill Pickles: 50 calories
8 Endive Leaves with ½ Ounce of Reduced Fat Feta: 47 calories
Slice of Fat Free American Cheese: 30 calories
2 Slices of White Meat Turkey Wrapped in 2 Lettuce Leaves With Mustard: 48 calories
1 Ounce Smoked Salmon on Two Wheat Crackers: 50 calories
One Tofu Dog With Mustard and Sauerkraut: 50 calories
2 Egg Whites With One Ounce Feta and Hot Pepper Relish: 50 calories
¾ Cup of Almond Milk: 45 calories
One large Tomato Broiled with One Ounce of Low Fat Fresh Mozzarella: 50 calories
Stay safe beautiful :)
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| Well well well, it's been a while huh? I accidently stumbled across my own blog on Google whist searching for thinspo *oh the irony*. I feel like posting again anyways so I apologize for not updating and hopefully I'll make it up to you lovelies.
So, what's happened since... October? I've got a boyfriend but it turns out he could have cancer, I've done miserably in my exams, I've started SHing again and now I purge up every little thing I eat. As you can tell, it's all good! I can't concentrate on school because I'm preoccupied by the thought of food and cutting... I didn't think this would end.
Here's a survey, knock yourself out. I'll post pictures after I've collected some more.
Age: 16
Height: 5'7
Weight: 136lbs
Dress Size: 10
Highest Weight: 140
Lowest Weight 127
Goal Weight: 90
Favorite Diet Food: Cucumber
Favorite Binge Food: Biscuits
Favorite Exercise: Athletics
Favorite Thinspo? I can't find it *sigh*
Where Do You Slip Up? Junk food = binge
When Did It Start? It started as a 'diet'. It's turned into hell.
Does Anyone Know?
Nobody knows, it's staying that way.
Do You Want Help?
No!
How Many Calories Do You Consume A Day?
between 200 - 400 (one meal)
What Do You See When You Look In The Mirror?
A depressed failure
Are You In A Relationship?
Yes. But I don't feel comfortable.
Are You The Fat Or Thin One Out Of Your Friends?
Depends who I'm with. I can be both
Are You Depressed?
generally.
Ever Tried To Commit Suicide?
Few times
Ever Been To A Psychologist?
Once. I lied and that was the end of that.
I AM -
[] anorexic
[x] ednos
[ ] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[x] hungry
[x] thirsty
[ ] drinking something
[ ] Under 100lbs
[x] starving yourself
[] participating in a fast
PEOPLE -
[] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic
[] call me fat
[x] say I’m skinny
[ ] say I’m ugly
[x] say I’m pretty
[ ] spread rumors about me
[] force me to eat
[] say I eat too much
[x] wish I’d eat more
[] don't know I'm anorexic/bulimic
I WISH -
[x] I was THIN
[x] I had a better body
[x] I didn't have to eat
[x] I could control myself
[x] I was under 110lbs
[x] I could avoid food
[] I could hide what I am
[x] I wasn’t fat
[x] I was pretty
[ ] I could stop being ana/mia
I LOVE -
[x] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference when fasting
[x] shaking
[] being weak
[x] losing weight
[] being anorexic/bulimic
[x] green tea
[] diet pills
[x] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself
APPEARANCE
[] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly sometimes.
[x] I have many scars.
[] I tan easily.
[x] I wish my hair was a different color.
[] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[] I have/had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[x getting a boob job] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[] I have more than 2 piercings.
[] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles.
FAMILY
[x] I've sworn at my parents.
[] I've run away from home.
[] I've been kicked out of the house.
[x] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[] I want to have kids someday.
[] I've had children.
[] I've lost a child.
EMBARRASSMENT
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry.
[x] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[x] I've glued my hand to something
[x] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose.
[ ] I've had my trousers rip in public.
RELATIONSHIPS
[] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of abandonment.
[] I've cheated in a relationship.
[] I've gotten divorced
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[x ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.
SEXUALITY
[x] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I am a cuddler.
[] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger.
[] I have kissed a stranger.
HONESTY
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
BAD TIMES
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I regularly drink.
[x] I can't swallow pills.
[] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression at some point.
[x] I shut others out when I'm upset.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[x] I'm anorexic or bulimic or have EDNOS.
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[x] I'm addicted to self harm.
[x] I've woken up crying
[x] I've lost weight
[x] I've gained weight
[x] My weight holds me back
[x] Weight consumes me.
[ ] I'm at my thinnest
[ ] I'm at my biggest
[x] I've lost weight and kept it off
[x] I've lost weight but gained it back
[x] My weight affects my mood
[x] I weigh myself daily
[x] I am jealous of everyone smaller than me
[x] I thrive on compliments
[x] I feel bigger than people who are my size
[x] I feel happy when I'm hungry
[x] I get depressed after I eat
[x] I've skipped a meal
[x] I've thrown food away
[x] I've spit food out
[x] I've fasted
[x] I've taken diet pills
[]I've used laxatives
[x] I've purged
[x ] I exercise
[] I exercise so I can eat
[x ] I work out secretly
[] I work out daily
[x] I exercise to counteract eating
[] I've fainted from exhaustion
I've done:
[] Weed
[x] Cigarettes
[x] Alcohol
[x] Diet pills
[x] Pain killers
[ ] Anti-depressants
[ ] Ecstasy
[] LSD
[ ] Mushrooms
[ ] Speed
[] Cocaine
[] Other
[x] I keep my eating habits a secret
[x] I have a diet blog
[x] I look at thinspo
[x] I collect thinspo
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| Everyone has reasons they want to lose weight. Here are mine -
"If I'm thin I could get a guy. I won't be the odd one out. I won't be alone anymore. I can finally feel real love... I've never even kissed anyone before. I'm too fat and ugly. Boys will lose their friends if they like me and it will always be that way unless I'm thin. There are so many people, much prettier than me. I'm hideous and everyone hates me for it. I don't fit in. Why would a guy choose me over anyone else?
If I'm thin, my friends might actually like me. Everyone else is so tiny. The patterns are obvious! All the thin girls are best friends, they shove us fatties aside. I don't believe their 'you're my best friend' rubbish. Look at **** and ****. Everyone loves them. Why? Pretty, funny... skinny! Much thinner than everyone else and they look amazing. If I was thin, 'I love you' will mean something not, 'I don't really want to be your friend'.
If I'm thin, I don't have to be scared of clothes shopping. Everything in the whole shop will fit me. I don't want to be embarrassed about buying clothes. A size 8, 10, even 12!? That's disgusting! These numbers are huge and it has to change. Soon, I won't be able to fit any clothes from my favourite places. I'll be a member of the plus size club. I want to be able to wear what I want and feel beautiful. If I'm thin, I will be able to do that...
If I'm thin, people will compliment me all the time. I never ever get compliments. Everyone lies to make me feel better, no wonder I can't trust anyone. If I'm skinny, I'll get loads of compliments! People will wonder how I got so good but I won't tell. It's between Ana and I. I'll make everyone jealous...
If I'm thin, I'm happy."
Why would you want to be thin?
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shopping, oversized shirts, photography, reading, make-up, snow, reality tv, magazines, music, skinny jeans, leggings, ballet flats, sparkles, the beach, day-dreaming, sleeping, animals, fruit, jewellery, dorothy perkins, osiris trainers, ice-skating, hugs, holidays, one tree hill, ice cold water, friends, family, movies, laughing, photoshop, no school, lazy days, fast cars, alcohol, football, fluffy tops.
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to do list
books
- harry potter
- twilight
- wasted
- wintergirls
- thin
life
- less internet
- more school revision
- be nicer
- stop worrying
- save money
beauty
- get extensions
- go blonder
- sort out wardrobe
- new make-up
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weight
- cw: 136.2
- gw1: 135
- gw2: 130
- gw3: 125
- gw4: 120
- gw5: 115
- gw6: 110
- gw7: 105
- gw8: 100
- gw9: 95
- ugw: 90
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